The bravest moment I have ever had was when I said, “I do.”

by Carmen Renee

Anyone who is married knows that marriage is a new life, a new mindset, and an interwoven commitment to accept someone no matter what happens. And truth be told, I have longed for that unconditional love from someone since my first boyfriend broke my heart 10 years ago.

Reality hit me at a cookout. It was May 2012 and I was happily engaged and talking to my best friend about Nate (my soon to be husband) and his weaknesses. Frankly, his flaws scared me. I admit what I thought a husband should be was a little irrational. Shouldn’t my husband be superman mixed with a thug, a bit of Denzel, and a lot of Jesus? Maybe, but what God has planned never happens the way you think it will.  

Surprisingly, even through all of my preconceived nonsense I saw Nate’s heart and fell hard for this guy. But I was still afraid that my biggest fear would come true — my husband deciding to leave God. If he left God I felt that he would leave me. That possibility froze me solid. I was paralyzed at the thought of trusting Nate with my heart, my future, and my happiness. Could he be trusted?

1 "But now, O <insert your name here>, listen to the Lord who created you.
    O Israel, the one who formed you says,
Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
    I have called you by name; you are mine.
2 When you go through deep waters,
    I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
    you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
    you will not be burned up;
    the flames will not consume you."

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5 "Do not be afraid, for I am with you."

Isaiah 43:1-2, 5

These words from God always remind me that the way to be brave in life is to remember that God, who knows you and can truly help you in any way, is with you.

Always fight to make life about God’s power and plan and not your own. This is what it means to be brave: to walk in faith.

And that is what I did. I decided to fast and pray for a few days before the wedding in hopes of getting the peace that I needed to walk with Nate through life’s ups and downs, and what I discovered is that God will be there ahead, behind and beside me all the way.

He will do the same for you.

 
 

And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age. (Matt 28:20)