Dreams

by Madison Callaway

 

"For in dreams we enter a world that is entirely our own. Let them swim in the deepest ocean or glide over the highest cloud." 
– Albus Dumbledore, 
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

There are very few things in life that speak to me in the way that Harry Potter does. There’s something about a story in which a seemingly ordinary person gets to do something extraordinary. I mean just look at Harry. An eleven-year-old orphan who is literally living in a closet when we first meet him, is plucked out of his sad life and thrown into a journey full of magic, adventure, friendship and destiny. That’s the dream, isn’t it? I know it was for me.  

When I read Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone for the first time I remember thinking how badly I wanted to get my Hogwarts letter. And while I knew it was a work of fiction, a little part of me held on to the hope that maybe when I turned 11 an owl would bring me my letter and I’d get to hop on the Hogwarts Express and have my own adventure, just like Harry. That’s the dreamer in me and I’ve been that way since I was a little girl. I spent as much time as possible in my own imagination. Nothing was impossible for me! I could be a wizard, a princess, a fighter pilot or Han Solo. If I could dream it, I could do it.  

In a lot of ways, I am still that same little girl. I have this insatiable need to live an extraordinary life. I want to experience the world through travel, meet interesting people and do things that will make the world a better place. I want to BE someone special. I want to have those “movie worthy moments” with my friends where the conversations fade into the background, the music swells, and I look around the room with a silly smile on my face while a voiceover of myself plays saying something like “How did I get so lucky?” or “I can’t believe this is really my life!” I can honestly say that I have had moments in my life where I feel like that exact thing has happened. I’ve been able to step back and realize how blessed I am to have the life that I do and the people that I love in it. As beautiful as those moments are though, I can never seem to hold onto them for long enough. They aren’t really frozen in time like they are in the movies. That’s the thing about life…it keeps on going whether you are ready to move on or not.  

You face a lot of harsh realities when you are a dreamer. I’d consider myself to be a pretty realistic person despite my dreamer tendencies. But no matter how realistically I look at a situation, it always seems to come back to this same, deep-seated fear. That at the end of my life, I’ll reflect on my journey and realize I never did anything worth noting. I will have wasted my life here on earth and after I’m gone people won’t care about who I was, or what I’d done.  

This is something that I wrestle with daily. In my opinion, this is the biggest downside of having the “dreamer” personality. Nothing can live up to the dreams you see for yourself in your mind. The fear of never achieving my goals can be so crippling sometimes that it stops me in my tracks. I can be so obsessed with living the perfectly laid out life, that I look up and realize I haven’t done anything but sit on my bed and worry, and plan, and journal for four days straight, which is doing exactly what I was worried about…accomplishing nothing! Now I’m not saying that taking time to plan and journal and pray about your goals is a bad thing. Not in the slightest. But to let that monopolize your time and fill your head and your heart with worry? No dear friends, that is Satan using your insecurities against you. And he is good at it.

But I have a secret to share with you. Something that has taken me an embarrassingly long time to figure out. I am a dreamer because God made me that way. He created me to be the way that I am. I am his dream, his creation, his masterpiece, and I work exactly the way he planned for me to. I am his precious daughter. I’m filled with joy when I read Harry Potter because he created me with an appreciation for magic and beauty and adventure. I long to experience “movie-like moments” because I am a performer with a flair for the dramatic that The Lord put in me. I want to travel and meet new people and do big things because my Savior put in me the ability to dream big! He created me with a uniqueness and a carefulness that only a Father who loves his children deeply can do. And it’s because of that love that I can look past the fear and anxiety and see a future of his design, that will be bigger, brighter and more beautiful than anything I could dream up for myself.

So sweet sisters, I invite you to dream big with me. Place your dreams, your cares, your worries, your insecurities, your everything in the capable hands of our Father. Be bold. Believe in magic. Love hard. Follow your dreams and allow God to guide your steps. Our dreams may be big, but our God is bigger and he created us to do amazing things. He put those dreams and desires in our hearts for a reason, for such a time as this, and he will never let us fall.

“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.”
– Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone


Madison Callaway holds a Theatre Performance degree from Oklahoma Christian University. Although performing has always been her first love, she also has a passion for travel, mission work, breakfast food and all things nerdy. She’s an ENFP who needs lots of alone time, but give her good friends, good music and a full tank of gas and she’s always up for an adventure! You can follow Madison on: Instagram: @madisonvictoria • Twitter: @MadisonV13 • Blog: madisonvcallaway.wixsite.com/theburrow